First things first, I understand you feel the need to keep the secrets to yourself. Maybe writing them down would help, on paper, online, anywhere really. You don't have to show anyone, but just to have it somewhere other than in your head. If you have someone you trust and feel comfortable talking to, even for only some of it, you can. It helps to share the secrets.

If you want to talk to me about it, as well, you can. I promise to keep your secrets and you can PM me at any time for any reason. I'm happy to help <3