Today has been a rough day. I've had bad thoughts, like a record playing in my head of all the things I don't want to think about. I have no energy or desire to do anything- I've started this post a dozen times and then just closed out of it, thinking, "What's the point?"

I've tried everything to keep myself feeling like I can make it from minute to minute, but its like I can feel my brain chemistry weighing me down. I feel like a failure- my house is a wreck, I've had to struggle to give my daughter my attention, and I hate feeling down. Just last week I was happy and content- not manic, but stable. I just want to go back to feeling that way again!!

I think having a taste of normalcy is almost worse than feeling bad all the time...