I've been on this manic, psychotic ride for over two months now, I have really been praying for a miracle.

Do miracles come in sheep's clothing painted like depressed psychotic paranoia? Well if so I'm cured. I kinda knew this might be coming. Praying it wouldn't.

My daughter and her broken arm , well I had to take her back to the ER today, they thought she had Compartment Syndrome, thank god they were wrong. She isn't in the clear, but she avoided emergency surgery today.
She is on close to watch and hopefully things will start to heal.

Needless to say all the stressful events in the last few weeks I think have finally teetered my mania. I am not sure if I am going back to mixed or straight to the bottom. Right now I feel like I am in a fight or flight for my daughters sake to get through this. On the inside tho I wish I was dead, not completely dead but maybe partly brain dead.

I am really exhausted and I don't know how much more I can fight. I am so scared to hit bottom right now, I think that will be the end of any fight I have left. I am so paranoid right now too, I noticed yesterday how bad it was getting. I just know someone sent me those disappearing texts as a msg, a warning that I am treading thin water.... see I know I know.

So I am still praying for something, I asked for a miracle last time and it got me this, what should I pray for now?

Please send my daughter any healing thoughts you can, she is already traumatized by the event let alone more surgery.