Maybe it is depression, I don't know. I'm not a doctor. In my head I don't think it's depression, I've been depressed before and I know what that feels like. There was a time when I was in my teens where I didn't even want to get out of bed in the morning. I just wanted to die, for everything to just wash away. I don't feel like that now, though. I want to live, I want to live for a very, very selfishly long time. I think the best way to describe how I feel is disappointed. I'm very disappointed with the world. It's not at all what I thought it would be when I was a kid. I expected to earn a living, I knew there would be highs and lows, I knew that nothing worth having was easy. I just really expected there to be more depth. It seems like everyone is so shallow and vapid; insincere. It feels like only the simple are happy. Is that how life is supposed to be or am I just jaded at an early age?