I give up on all of this. I hate it all. Why can't people tell the truth anymore?? Stupid me to let yet another person hurt me. Hahaha. I know it's all my fault though, everything always is. They tell you they love you, that they 'care'. Then the leave you when you need them most. I don't care anymore. Everyone does it, they all hate me. I'm crazy, right??? Hahaha thats why they all leave. They don't want me! I'm not good enough. I finally figured it out!!!! I'm so sorry to everyone here. I know I shouldn't be here. I deserve everything that happens to me. I'm the problem! Hahaha. It's sooo clear, why didn't I see it before?? I deserve everything. All the pain, the thoughts, EVERYTHING!!!! I'm soo sorry. I really am.