Petunia,

I can understand your feelings. I also go through phases where I make good progress and then have a relapse. Try to remember that working toward healing is a gradual process, and it is not a straight line. We fall down along the way, but we never go back to where we were in the beginning. We get up and continue on. It probably sometimes feels like you just don't have the strength to do it anymore and you are at your limit. At times like those, try to be gentle with yourself. Accept that things have taken a temporary turn for the worse again, and use this time to increase your patience and self-nurturing activities. Don't scold or blame yourself for not having difficulty. Each person has their own pace for healing, and if you are healing from many different things, it will take time. What can you do for YOU right now?