Every night I plan to do awesome things for the next day, and some how I can just get done a few things. Like yesterday, I took the kids to the doctor to get their shots, and have a physical done for school, I took them to lunch because of the shots, then I registered the boys for pre K, I went to the post office, and then I was pooped. Now that was a super lot for me. Today, I'm backed up on laundry and dishes....must do them...but it all seems so overwhelming and tedious. I can't think how to tackle it. I also have to go to the grocery store...but dragging 4/5 kids to the store sounds like, and feels like climbing a mountain.

I also find I don't know what I'm feeling, nor do I have a vocabulary, or words to assign to them. My meds also make me confused, when I feel okay, even though things are really out of control for me. I know I just recently slipped. When like this I tend to start looking up my horoscope, getting online tarot card readings, and for the grand finally, I purchased $400.00 worth of spells to be done on two different sites to take all my issues away and bring happiness. Of course I don't see what's going on until 5 minutes after what I've done. I prayed for my soul, and then canceled everything the next morning. I really need the computer and credit cards taken away from me when I'm like this, but no one can tell if anything is wrong. I can't even...if I'm fine, fine fine, every day, and then the house and kids are out of control. Like huh?