I think that it would be most productive to utilize this time in your life …and these concerns to be the catalyst to explore things…subjects of interest,learning,people,creativity….and discover what it is you tend to gravitate toward.You likely have simply hit a turning point in your life where you have run the course of one phase of life…and must find your footing again…self-discovery of what you want to take from this life…what you'd like to give to it….where you would like to see your self 5 and 10 years from now.There are opportunities all around us,for learning,application,pursuit of wisdom,expanse of our perception of life and all it entails.But,as you know,no one can do any of these things for us.You must firmly decide to nurture yourself,expand yourself,and be diligent about it.You may wish to visit with a mental health professional,and be assessed.That cannot hurt.But,please don't be harsh with yourself.Many feel this dissociation with the world.We feel alien at times,as if there are none similar to ourselves.That no one holds the feelings,thoughts,or values we hold.When we branch out…we find that others really have more in common than we are aware.I think that media gives us an artificial ideal.An artificial representation of what life must look like.

The wise Byzantine quoted…"…..being used for a purpose…. & being thoroughly worn out …..

There are as many "religions"…as there are interpretations of them…..Many philosophies have personal truths and offer valuable concepts to walk away with.I don't know how useful it is to lay the same blanket upon all "religion" and deem every content therein as self-delusion….That is such an individualized personal set of truths…from one human to the next.

One cannot know if EVERYONE is shallow as you have only encountered a very small percentage of fellow humans on the planet.

May I ask your age?…I believe you are walking through a phase of inner prompting that is common to those in their 20's…I certainly am not always right.But my three sons are 25,19,and 20...and that is just for reference as to why I may assume your age.