As a frog of little brain I'm unable to give you an answer. Yes depression is vicious and sneaky and pulls you down. Then when you think you have reached bottom you find out it can get deeper and darker.

Even if you can't smile and be happy about the "art" for the end sheets in a book set. You can not deny your accomplishment. Congratulations.

I understand about the back pain. The only time I'm not in pain is after my injections. Those (because of my insurance) are only allowed 3 times a year. Morphine in on a long list of medications to make it through my day. Sitting is about the only activity I can do without pain.

Don't give up on your medication and therapy just keep changing things until you find the right combination. I've been through 70 some meds and combinations there of and 5 different Pdocs before I found some relief. Notice I said relief not cure. Never was really lucky with therapy but I was able to lose my self in drawing and sewing and that has helped some.

Like I said before I'm just a frog of little brain. I want you to know you are not alone. Post here whenever you feel like it. There are those that understand what you are going through and are willing to listen.

kebs