I'm afraid you will tell me that it's not going to help me to "feel good" with you. I know that comes from the opinions of my former Ts, but it's a strong fear. It's why I keep asking you if you're going to take "holding hands" away from me and you keep saying "no" but I'm not sure if I believe you. I know you do therapy differently from my other Ts and you believe in physical contact with you, and doing things like walking together outside. But I also know you change your mind a lot. PLEASE don't change your mind about how you're treating me. We both know that I'm progressing, though slowly. I can't help still needing you and wishing therapy could be about you and me. But, I know it can't be, yet we can have a strong, close relationship. I FEEL that we have that, and it won't change! I trust you. Being able to bring my H in was a huge step for me, to be able to share you. I hope you realize that in spite of still wanting you to love the child part of me and comfort her. I am accepting that I love you too, though I mostly write it and can't say it out loud. PLEASE stay safe and healthy for me so I can have therapy with you for a long time. I'll never want another T now that I found you. Never.