HI
I am laura
I have been thinking I have Bipolar 2 for a long time - i self-medicated with drugs/alcohol during my manic phases, which left me thinking that i was just an addict.
I quit drinking and then the manias were more evident.
I believe that they were triggered by my antidepressants.
My Pdoc put me on Geodon but I am scared to take it. I am just scared in general. I have kids and a job and don't want these ups and downs but am afraid of taking the Geodon b/c the last time - he put me on Abilify and I had the worst mania of my life.
My DH is a pharmacist and said that the Geodon will be horrible.
Just need some support and some advice.
I am in a very sad state right now - coming down off the mania, drank last nite, was impulsive and hypersexual and now feel depressed. and shameful.
i cant live like this anymore - it is too hard. dont worry - no suicidal thoughts - i am just so exhausted from this. dh is not supportive b/c i am super good at keeping on the mask (which is exhausting in itself). he doesnt think this is as bad as it is. i am afraid to tell him the extent of it....because he will think i am crazy.
thanks