I am new
I have been thinking I have bipolar for a while - but self-medicated with alcohol during my manias, which masked the illness. Once I quit drinking, I noticed the hypomanic episodes.
I have a long history of depression (since childhood) but the mania didn't kick in until i started taking Lexapro.
My Pdoc initially put me on Abilify which made me extremely manic.
He now prescribed Geodon. I am afraid to take it. My DH is a pharmacist, and isnt very supportive. nor does he know the extent of my "crazy brain." i am super adept at wearing the mask.
I am at my wits end, however, b/c after a period of abstenence, i drank again and was hypersexual last nite - and feel super scared and shameful, and down comes the depression now.
I just need some words of encouragement and a push to get my RX filled. I def can't live with these mood swings but again, afraid of "crazy meds."
THanks in advance,
Laura