I can totally relate to you on many of the things you have mentioned. I had a car accident at the age of 17 and developed a terrible phobia that lasted 15 years. When my husband left me, he threw many things in my face that he said I would never do (but I insisted I would some day). Those being: driving, getting a part-time job, going back to school and going to the gym. Well, I showed him (and myself) and proceeded to do every one of those things on his list. The driving one was the biggest hurdle. Even when I was making the phone call to the driving school, I was almost sick to my stomach and every lesson brought trips to the bathroom! BUT! I did it. I asked for an instructor who would understand my fear and phobia and they gave me the perfect person. He was laid back and very patient with me and I've now been driving for over 10 years.

I'm going through my own stuff right now and need to work on my self-esteem (which has been almost destroyed by bad relationships) but remembering what I HAVE done in the past, proves that I can gain my esteem back again.

You have many things on your list and you are young. You can do it! It just takes time and patience with yourself. Don't be too hard on you and take baby steps. Take it from someone who has been there.