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Jul 15, 2011, 03:22 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Michigan
Posts: 6,543
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Bless your heart!! You know, when you're in physical pain, and you cannot do many things, that thrusts you into a depression that is very difficult to get out of. I can definitely relate, as i have alot of spinal problems, and because of this I've had to go on Social Security Disability. I could no longer work anymore. Have YOU thought about applying for SSD??? You might want to send in an application -- and if you get denied, then hire an attorney on contingency -- and HE will get it for you!!!
Being "disabled" (which you are) makes you feel kind of "worthless" since in our society we seem to be labeled as "lazy" and "good for nothing" if we don't work.  People like to say "jeez, you don't LOOK disabled!!" Well, how is someone with a disability SUPPOSED to look?
You definitely are suffering from depression -- and it could be that the medications you have tried just have been the wrong ones for you. Sometimes we have to try several before we find one that REALLY works. And keep in mind that you have to be on them for 3-6 weeks before they take effect !! Perhaps you weren't on them long enough -- or like I said, you just need to find something else that works.
And as far as changing "gears" during a conversation -- did you know that chronic pain can cause that? Studies have shown that people with chronic pain suffer brain damage!!! Plus, when you're hurting 24/7, it's difficult to hold one thought for more than a couple of seconds! All of us have short-term memory losses -- and conversations can get pretty stressful for us because we can't think of the right "words" or phrases that we want to use. 
How about asking your doc for a referral to a pain management doctor? There, you will probably get your pain under control -- and that will surely help things. Plus talking with a therapist would help too. Check with your county's Mental Health agency -- they might offer counseling based on the ability to pay -- some even offer it for free.
I wish you the very best. I know how this whole thing can affect you. Take care of YOU. God bless. Hugs, Lee
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