((((((((itspeaks)))))))))---he didn't use condoms and had multiple partners you say.
My first thought is to ask you to get to a Doctor and have yourself checked for all STD's. He put you at high risk.

My second thought is to let you know that I think all here understand how you still feel "love" for him; we all do that...he is what you have known for three years, you trusted him, you were his woman, you felt that something would come of this, the idea of him is a known-a comforting thought as opposed to having to be on your own again. It's hard to go back to being just you and not part of "us". It's scary.

We are here for you.....all of us....I am so sorry this has happened; I wish I could make it go away. I send you hugs, please get to a Doctor?---------Pax----theo