Triplets wow! Plus two more, I hope you can get you nanny back. Dragonfly had a good idea with the oldest one if responsible enough to watch a few of them while you get groceries. My eldest is 12, he watches my other two 11, and 9 if I have errands to do close to the house. I started him out slowly with 10 min here 15 min there, as I am a little paranoid for a mom. But now I'm glad I can trust him to do this.

I can relate to the rest of your post as well. I make lists and lists and great plans then only manage to get a few done sometimes. Other times I blow through the lists and run out of to-do's and feel lost and anxious.