This is right where I'm at too. I didn't recognize how dependent I was becoming until I learned she was going on vacation. It's painful stuff wanting to be independent but feeling dependent. From what I can tell though, this is part of the process of attachment sometimes... which means that this is where my work really begins. So I'm trying to learn to accept the dependence, and hopefully when she gets back I'll be strong enough to be honest. I'm right in the thick of these feelings, though... so I don't have a lot of answers. I can just tell you that I feel those feelings too and that's why I'm here.