I'm so glad others understand what I'm feeling! It's very validating to know I'm not just "being weird."
I hate feeling vulnerable, and I was just starting to be okay with that around T, when she had to bring up this whole dependence thing, and my instinctive reaction is "no! I can't be dependent on someone else!" I'm not used to relying on someone else for anything, but especially not for emotional support. I've never gotten that, I've learned to accept that and just not show that I'm vulnerable, and now my whole perception is having to shift, and it's hard, and scary. I've never had someone just accept what I share with them and not question everything I say. I've never had someone that was okay with me showing emotions and just letting me feel rather than trying to fix it or make fun of me or something.
I was just thinking on the drive home from session yesterday that I don't have anything to talk to T about next week. Looks like I have a ton to talk about!!!