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Trauma work is in my opinion one of the hardest things a person can do.
It takes a lot of bravery to be able to face things done to us that were so wrong.
And, it takes a special type of T to help trauma clients. It is even an area of specialty. One can have a great T who does not have the skill set to handle intense trauma therapy work. Trauma therapy opens up the client and exposes them to the full force of the event(s). This is very serious therapy work.

You may need to ask your T if she can recommend another T who specializes in trauma work. Sometimes a person will have two Ts for a while if they are working on certain areas of healing.

Being afraid of facing the trauma is VERY natural. It was real damage. And honestly a person would have to be seriously mentally ill to NOT have some fear when they are facing trauma again. The HEALTHY human brain will do whatever it needs to do to stay out of danger and safe. That fear you have is 110% healthy. Listen to it and give it some respect. You will be amazed at how empowering it is to just honor that fear in a healthy way.