Don't do that to yourself; you don't know that it is annoying your T, you haven't discussed how she feels with her; she's the only person who can say/confirm that she is annoyed and this situation doesn't strike me as one that a normal person would get annoyed at, much less a T.

If you are feeling "stuck" because the subject is too overwhelming and scary, either break it down into something tiny you can work on or change subjects. All things are related; what you are having trouble with now, today, it's related to the trauma too.

Think of five things you would like to make better in your life today and then just grab one to talk about and look at; talking about that will help free up some of the anxiety about the trauma. Don't try to attack the trauma head on, go at it sideways.

Or, if you are frustrated with your fear of the trauma, grab some tiny piece of it (one can eat a whole cow one bite at a time) and look at that. Think of a recent dream and discuss it with T and/or get started looking at your dreams; they'll help you get closer. Do you know "when" the trauma happened? Discuss that time period and other memories; give yourself permission not to talk about the trauma, just think around it and discuss the rest of your life during that period. The trauma wasn't all there was at that time and recreating more of the period will make the trauma a bit smaller, put it more in perspective of the whole.