You and your therapist know what you need better than your mother does. I can't say why she does or says the things she does. Maybe she doesn't even know, but she sounds kind of toxic. The important thing is to get yourself as healthy as you can. If what you need is the hospital than there is nothing wrong with that. If you were diabetic and your insulin was out of control no one would tell you to just stay home and deal with it. These chemicals in our brain are out of whack and they affect our body and our wellbeing and sometimes we need help to get them sorted out so we can be healthy. It doesn't mean we aren't strong enough or that we're failing in some way, it just means we need a little more help. It takes a lot of courage to ask for help. I know it's hard not to takes things to heart and we want our mothers of all people to be supportive of us and to validate us but sometimes they just don't. Sometimes we just have to surround ourselves with people who will fill that need and accept that we might not get it from our mothers. Take care of yourself, you have just as much right to feel healthy as any other person.