"I feel ashamed for even thinking of being a coward"

Seriously? There is nothing cowardly about getting the help you need. If fact, as nervous as you are about it, I think you are a very brave person for considering it!

It is the mark of a great mom and wife that you want to take care of your family. But in order to take care of them, you have to take care of yourself, first. I worked my way through college in a hosptial security department, so I know a little about the psych ward. Anika is right, you will be treated with the respect and dignity you deserve as a patient in a very theraputic setting.

Please take care of yourself and remember that the docs and nurses are there to help you, not judge you!