My therapist is leaving for vacation for a week and a half. Normally, this would bother me and I'd stress a bit but it would go ok. The problem this time is he's leaving for vacation, then right after that I'm leaving for 2wks for a family thing. So this 11 days turned into almost a month and I'm completely panicked.

Normally, I wouldn't tell him so. I tend to play the "tough girl" attitude on the outside, even though he knows I'm screwed up and I tell him intamite details of my life, I don't feel comfortable with him knowing that I am worried about this. I see him 2x a week and on days he says he has to miss one of those days inside my heart sinks. But outside I'm just okay whatever. When he told me he was leaving for 11 days (I didn't put that together in my mind with my leaving yet) I pulled out the calender on my iphone and started asking questions about what days, etc... so that I could type them in. I would have remembered them, but I didn't want him to see the growing anxiety in me. Now that I've put two and two together with the dates, I am downright sick over it.

I think part of my problem is that I don't want him to think I'm attatched to him. A spiritual "mentor" and best friend I had previously used to tell me not to attatch myself to him, but just to God. And I know in the psych world they talk about boudraies and transference and all that. So I'm scared to let him know that I freak out when he leaves. And NO ONE in my family gets that. What's a couple sessions? What's a few weeks? Why do you have to see him anyway much less 2x a week? Maybe it's wrong to be "attatched" to a therapist, but I am and no one gets it. Does anyone here get it? What do you do? Does your therapist tell you it's wrong?