i am a teenager, and my parents are divorced although i am in a slightly strange position, i havent seen my father in about 7 years by my mothers choice of not allowing me to, the first few years i had terrible re occurring nightmares and hallucinations i grew out of them after about 3 years, he sends letters and cards for special occasions but i cant open them, i really want to see him but i have tried asking my mum and its always the same answer, no. I now have a boyfriend of 7months, he is moving to spain in 1month and i have started to have hallucinations and nightmares, im not coping very well at all, i have bad thoughts and i have tried things, i just dont know what to do anymore having to cope with losing two people at once is alot to handle and its hard to think of anything positive, i just dont know what to do:/