Thanks guys. A couple clarifications.... I am not currently seeing any form of Doctors nor am I taking any medications that can't be had over the counter. Due to my current unemployed state I do not have the insurance so I am trying to make it through without. It's rough mostly because day to day I just don't know how much pain there will be physically or emotionally. But I get by. Hell I'm here and will be for every tomorrow so that's definately a good thing.

The art thing is something I am definately proud of. I spent a time just making these paintings and staring at them, but refusing to share them with anyone but my wife. Well I decided that a forum I go to a lot for some of my favorite authors was a place where I could show my work with no in person criticisms. A few months later I get the email asking for the use of three and yeah pride is certainly inside me. Just harder to accept it when I am in one of my moods. Now I'm looking at showing them in a small gallery and maybe selling a few of them. The hardest part is that what I put on these canvases is not typical pretty pictures. Think Pollock for reference. It's all abstract lines and splashes and occasionally a face will appear by accident which is something that freaks me out.

Haha. Today's a good day I think. Hopefully it stays that way.