The problem with starving yourself is that it's NOT JUST SELF-HARM, it's PASSIVE SUICIDE because IT CAN & WILL KILL YOU VERY EASILY.

That's where I was coming from the first time (at the age of 43) when my pdoc sent me to an eating disorders treatment center. Obviousy then couldn't help me...I Didn't have any body image issues....I jlust didn't want to live anymore.

I hope you have a T who can help you with the issues you have surrounding this.....but a good start would be to define WHY you feel you need to be punished. There is nothing in this world that would deserve that kind of punishment to yourself.

Interesting, how we (humans) can be against the death penalty for those who commit serious crimes against others & yet we are willing to harm ourselves for punishment to the point that it can kill us for things much less serious than those serious crimes committed against others. Strange how the human mind works.

Hope you can work through your punishment issues so you can heal. Sending you kind loving thoughts for you to use on yourself.