I guess, but, I've already replayed it a lot in my head, but some of it just won't replay. I put (11 or 12) in my original post, because most of those years are blocked from memory. I know people say that children's brains block out some things, and what not, but, I just can't relive some o the stuff.

Just, that one night, I remember it too clearly, so, of course I don't want to re live that. I also keep thinking that, well, I should stop acting like this, because it's making my mom worried, and making kids at school call me "gothic", and "emo", when I'm not. Still, your support I appreciate, I'm just trying to figure out some things right now....