I was talking with my best friend at the time and her mom and it came up in conversation i called him a pervert and next thing i know i'm in the police station filling out a report. My mom continued to lived with him for another 6 months it took her not being able to see me at all when he was present or had a right to be present. I'm not so sure that i will ever be able to put this to rest it will always be in the back of my mind. I have never gotten help for my ptsd i went through a lot of trauma therapy over the years it has helped in some aspects of my life but when i'm alone is when i'm at my worst i think going through all of that for all those years gave me more than just ptsd and i'm not on medication for anything right now and i really should be. most of my life i have been a welcome mat for them to wipe their feet all over i've gotten better with standing my ground and let myself take care of me instead of taking care of everyone else. not that long ago i learned that i really need to live my life for me instead of everyone else. Me being single really hasn't been helping my mood especially when i have my episodes it makes me feel more like a failure and that all those things that guy said to me is really true its been so long now that i don't even know how to go out and meet a woman these days other than online dating sites but i'm trying to get my bipolar managed as best i can so i can work on other things i need to work on