I am having so much cutting urges, it is what i think about all day long. I have suicidal thoughts too. I sprained my ankle a week or so ago so I have way too much time to just sit and think.

The thoughts are based on the fact that I'm never going to get better (i am on the last possible med for depression according to my pdoc)

I should be able to control these urges by now

I am always going to be dealing with this, and I'm not sure i can muster up the energy needed for it.

So how do I stop theses thoughts?