Updating this post since so many of you provided such kind support.

As it turned out, I did *not* go back to work last Monday. Each day that went by building up to Monday put me deeper and deeper into anxiety until by Saturday & Sunday I was in a full-blown anxiety/panic attack. It was horrible. Sunday night my mother and I were even discussing the possibility of me going to the hospital. I couldn't think straight.

So, long story short, I was able to get my Ativan refilled and have been taking it daily to get it into my system to calm down a bit. I left voice mail messages for my supervisor telling him I'd had a "relapse" of my condition and would keep him updated. Then I unplugged the phone all week because I had a fear of him calling. (Totally irrational, I know, but that's part of this anxiety/phobia.)

So, round 2 on Monday. I've got to push myself in there and then take it from there.