It is hard to take action when you feel as if you have no energy or passion about it. What I do is get out some music - the Beatles works for me - that I can sing along to. It helps empty my brain and music lifts my mood. I would really urge you to see someone, being on an anti-depressant can help you step back and re-evaluate what is going on from a healthier perspective. I know I couldn't do it without medication. I hope you feel better soon.