Thanks guys. It's just an everyday struggle and a never-ending cycle that I would love to get out of. But its force keeps me reigned in

I need to do some REAL work in therapy and quit minimizing, lying, avoiding, masking, etc. I need to trust myself and learn to trust others. Hell, there's a lot that I need to do, I just can't seem to be able to step up to the challenge. One day at a time ...