Red Rose please speak with agencies in your area that haelp people who are facing homelessness and no income. I don't know where you live but if you like I can google what is available in your area. It is important to hold on, look for hope. Obviously you are a compassionate person. It's okay to have to start over again without stuff because stuff means nothing. A safe quiet home with a mattress on the floor and a shower is about what I require. Good luck.