Thanks. I said something to my mom today about being weird about him leaving... I didn't go into detail or anything, (keep in mind I'm 32) and she kinda freaked out saying that wasn't healthy to get attatched to people. She doesn't really approve of me seeing him anyway I don't think so why do I bother trying to explain things to her?? ugh...

Watched a movie last night and in it the woman was severely depressed and the husband was questioning the Dr. saying "Why? she has a good life, loves her job, kids... etc..etc.." The Dr. replied "you're wife is not unhappy. She's ill." -- I know it's true, but I don't fully understand it so I guess I can't expect them too. *sigh* Anyway, I know I'll get through it. I see him Tuesday and am still considering talking to him about it, but again it's that "attatchment" thing. I don't want him to think I need him. Or that I feel like I need him. But really it helps me get through the week- like if I have a bad day or something, I can get through it and just say, "ok, I'll journal it then bring it up to him on (whatever day)." It's just 3 weeks... seems like a really long time. According to my 6year old its FOREVER, lol.