Dexter:
Last year i was going thru days where i would just sleep and stay in bad all day ignoring all my other responsibilites. this is when i was waitressing (a temporary job that lasted for a year, a bad year). i was supposed to be looking for a job instead i slept and did use alchohol to help myself sleep at the time. Alchohol is bad for people like us, just makes us feel worse. i know b/c i drank the other nite and woke up yesterday with severe depression, so try to stay away from it. my mom ended up getting ill and i moved in to take care of her (i am 33 by the wayif it matters) that is where my life changed. i quit waitressing focused on my mom, she got better, i got stronger and found work. just lost my job and that put me into a depression for a bit but now i am kinda back on my feet although today and yesterday all i have felt is like sleeping all day and hiding from world. i still feel depressed today i admit. like crying. life is hard but we have to keep fighting and try our hardest to not be self destructive. it is hard i know b/c i have been thru it all. i think i may go lay down in a while. i was supposed to go to gym today but will do that tomorrow. it will all be ok. we have to be fighters and life is a journey that we have to face and enjoy the good with the bad. ok not that i have babbled on i hope at least some of that helped.