I had the benefit of dissociation as well. so i could separate myself from the mood by saying "its fleeting" and go about a seminormal routine. the phase ITS FLEETING has saved me from so much agony, especially when i was depressed. i know from my history that these moods cycle and that while i may be feeling terrible end of the world at this moment, that any day, hour, minute i will be feeling something else. so it was easier not to get caught up in the feelings that were causing me chaos. because i knew they were caused by a chemical imbalance and not REAL life stuff. saying its fleeting was able to remind me of that. sometimes i would have to repeat it over and over and over but it definately is a great coping tool for me. the other phase i use is "its normal for me". i react more intensely than other people do. i have anxiety that makes this so. so when i feel i am overreacting to something, i judge myself harshly because i am not acting in what i think is a normal way and get really down on myself creating more anxiety. then when i remember that my response is "normal for me" i am able to let go of all that judgement and all the anxiety disappears. its like a magic wand making me feel better.
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