My T has never said anything like this, but I do wonder if she feels this way now that I've read this thread. I'm going to ask her about it during our next session. I think I would have a hard time accepting it if she did say yes, though. In my mind, irritation parallels anger, and my T doesn't seem like an angry person. If I hear that she's irritated by my behavior, I might get to thinking that it means she's angry with me.

I'm beginning to realize something here...subconsciously I want to appear as a "perfect" person in her eyes. Part of me doesn't want to reveal my annoying, bratty, irritating side. Obviously I can't be perfect - I know that. But inside, I don't want my T to think badly of me at all.

Probably dumb. Anyways, I hope you are able to move past this. Maybe talk with her about your fear of her disapproval?