1 Not that I recall. I have always felt I had an ideal childhood. I didn't have friends of my own but I would join in play with the children in the neighbourhood and with the friends of my siblings. I did enjoy being by myself a lot. I was teased (and at times bullied) for being what I now know to be social ineptitude. I don't recall the teasing and bullying as being distressing - just a normal part of life.
2No stressful triggers that anyone can identify. Must migraines are more like the "typical" migraine with aura, but but with a feeling of "not being there" - like everything is distant and vague. I suspect that I switch out as a means of coping with the pain, but I'm not sure. I'm not sure if it's normal, but I never have any memory of pain (migraine or otherwise) after the event. The only way of knowing I had pain is by remembering my actions (groaning, doubling over etc), remembering what I told someone about the pain I was experiencing at the time, or by what others have observed.
3, 4 I started getting migraines regularly when I was about 13. I think I had the occasional attack when I was 11 and 12. They continued at weekly to monthly episodes throughout my teens and gradually became less severe through my 20s. By about 30 I had migraines at about 3-4 week intervals, but I has stopped getting nauseous with most attacks. Then at around 45 the frequency and severity of the migraines started to increase, until by the time I reached 50 I was no longer able to continue in full time employment.
After discussions with family and friends, I seem to have lost blocks of time going back to my late teens, although I was not aware of memory loss until about 10 years ago. I'm not sure when the fugue states started. The first one that we know of was about 25 years ago, but we put that down to the medication I was taking at that time. Shortly before I stopped work, I would sometimes find myself in the wrong town when returning from work. I put it down to being "lost in thought" although I could never remember what I might have been thinking of. I was too embarrassed at the time to mention this to anyone.
Yep, what I am trying to figure out is whether it is physiological or psychological. Neurologists suspect it is psychological triggered by the migraines. The psychologists suspect it has a physiological origin and and any physiological issue is minor. Every turn seems to take me back to the beginning.
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