Usually when I tell people I have Paranoid Schizophrenia, they ask me if I am seeing a therapist. When I tell them no, they freak out and usually beg me to see one.

I saw one for a little while after I was diagnosed, but she scared me and made my problems worse. She kept asking me about personal things and I didn't feel comfortable telling a stranger. But she insisted. I quit her and friends bugged me to find another. I was afriad but I did anyway. He wanted to put me on medication. I believe in shamans and natural cures, so i refused medication. He was really nice to me up until then and he chose not to respect my spiritual beliefs. I got really scared again and quit him too. Now I am just a paranoid sometimes psychotic dude wandering around without a therapist or medication. I like to look to my family, friends and girlfriend for support because they know me and I know I can tell them anything. Sometimes I wish that it was mandatory for therapists to have mental disorders just so they can relate to us.

The reason I made this post is cause I'm wondering if you guys think it's weird. I personally don't believe in therapists and medication, but I still care about the people who see them and respect them no matter their decisions. But I feel hurt when people push me to see a therapist when I don't want to. I tell them that I am better off dealing with my problems by getting help from the people I love. I still get told that I need a professional to look after me. But why? I feel intimidated by medical staff and it only triggers delusions.

I promise I don't mean to offend people who are happy w their therapist. I'm glad you are happy with him/her and I wish you the best!

O-Dawg