Nope. Sorry, I do not see you as "anti-pharmaceutical", nor do I live in "Utopia", I gave up on that place eons ago.
I just wish people would take time to broaden (sp?) their world,views,etc. before bashing stuff. Believe it or not, I have conflicting views with medications,docs.,treatments,polictics,religion, etc., but I devote time to research all aspects as possible, then sit down and do the math. Again, I have never been an "A" student in math, algebra,pre-calc, and so on, but I am still able to see much of both sides.
I hear you, and think I feel where you are coming from, for I have been very much in a similar place and time.
On that note, I still wish you well, regardless what views you and I share or not share.
Best wishes to you.
DE