skysblue, thank you for sharing your feelings and experiences with me. Yes, I know my T can't be my friend or anything else but my T and that it wouldn't be the same if I had to pay attention to "her" stuff. I know it's fantasy but I like the fantasy. As far as my marriage, I've gotten a lot of my needs met elsewhere for over 35 years and I don't want to do that anymore. I want to connect more with my H the way I think a H and wife are supposed to connect. I don't think that's too much to ask for.

WePow, it sound so good the way you put it! I'm still afraid to tell my T directly that I love her; those words get stuck in my throat. I wish I could. I never felt so close to any of my other Ts before and I'm not used to telling friends that I love them. It's scary for me!! It makes me cry to think that it's really okay to love my T. It makes me feel small and vulnerable.

skysblue, I don't think my feelings for my T are only for her office. They're inside of me wherever I am. I know she thinks of me sometimes when I'm not in the office too. But I know what you mean. Therapy is a limited relationship. I hate that! My T lets me email her an interesting article I find, or photos of my kids. That's not crossing boundaries to her. She wants to be a real person to me because she IS a real person.

rainbow_rose, it's hard, isn't it?

wowy, no it's not an option to see another T. My T is comfortable seeing us together once in a while, or as often as I like. I wish I could see her once/week and see her another time with my H, but he doesn't want me to do that. I think I might get too dependent on her if I saw her 2x/week, anyway. About marriage. We've kind of settled into a comfortable life; it's not so bad, but I feel cheated and wish it could be different.

granite, I know you care.