So this is so screwed.
I had a terrible terrible week last week and i think i need to go back on my anti-depressants but i cant just yet as i have an operation tomorrow.
Anyway.

The weekend just been was pretty much AMAZING - i never ever thought i could be so so happy.
BUT, trouble is, all the happiness was brought on by bad things and came with consequences.
Me and my best friend decided not to tell anyone the full extent of what happened but i will let you know in breif.

Went to a different town for a gig.
Got DUI or DIC whereever you are from (aka. Drink drive) which means i have to go to court, pay a huge fine and then get my license taken off me.
Then we decided the night couldnt get any worse, did E, got real drunk and made a huge point of doing lots of stuff thats illegal just BECAUSE.

Now i want so badly to experience this type of happiness again, LOTS!
but wish there was some other way to do it!!

If this is what it takes i really do not have the funds to be happy!!