hi christie. i just want to touch on a little bit of your post. you sure have a lot going on. if you feel that your meds need to be adjusted please try to find the patience to talk with your doc and try. sometimes after a time our bodies get used to one medicine and need a switch to something else to keep things going properly.

I wanted to comment about your friends. With several deaths in your circle of friends recently it must be stressful on all of you. I absolutely would not assume that the loss of contact with some of them has anything to do with you. They may be isolating themselves a bit due to depression following these events. And sometimes I have found that when the grieving process is through, the people who you supported sort of detach so they can get their lives back together without the painful memories. I'm not saying they do this on purpose, it just seems to be a "survival instinct" that many people have, and it can be a painful experience for those that helped support them because all of a sudden a bond seems to be broken.

I think that there are many reasons given all the stress you and your friends must be under that some of them may be pulling away so i don't think you should have any fear that something is wrong with you. Concentrate on the friends that are still supportive, talk to them and let them help if they can.

Good luck christie, take care of yourself.

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