It's over. All I did was listen to 30 seconds of music while entering her office. I was feeling very emotional and was trying to soothe myself and also hoping that she could somehow 'enter' my space by seeing that I was desperate for connection.

One of the things she had been trying to get me to do is get in touch with my emotions. That has been difficult for me and this was a way for me to tap into them.

Instead I felt that my feelings were too much and I immediately pulled myself back in. Remember, she didn't do or say anything at the time but I'm very sensitive and could feel her disapproval.

It was a couple of weeks later when I called her on it that she said she was annoyed with me and that she thought I was behaving like a belligerent teenager.

That hurt.