Peanut,

Thank you so much for the links to the Survivors of Suicide. I found the website, and will be doing a lot more research with it. And I thank you for taking the time out to write that to me. I know you understand how I feel... although I cant imagine what its going to be like 2 years down the road. Its hard enough already. I havent gone through the anger phase, but I dont think I will either. I understand why she did it, but it hurts the most because it was such a shock for HER of all people to do it, and the fact that no one was with her while she laid on the garage floor. I do have a personal question for you, though if you dont feel like it, you arent inclined to answer. In my case, I was brought up in a Christian atmosphere. I was taught that the Bible said when you committ suicide, that is a sin, and you go to hell for it. Now I'm not saying I belive that, but Im not sure. I just cant imagine such a loving devoted Christian being condemned because she was tired of the pain and not being able to help herself and others. Did you think of this with your mother? Or did people say things to you about it to make you feel better? I cant imagine going to heaven and all my family be there except for her.... who deserved to be there the most. Thank you again for your post, and I assure you, I will be on this website alot.

Sarah

If you need to tell someone you love them, tell them today. Tomorrow is never promised.