Dear T,

I am scared to death this morning because i broke down and sent you an email last week and said i love you and am sad because you can't be my mom and that i want you to hold my hand for 1-2 minutes!!! I can't believe i said that!! It was a weak moment, and I'm scared now! I feel too vulnerable! I don't know if i can let you hold my hand after all. i know you're getting ready to be gone for 2 weeks also, and i don't want to feel attached if it is going to make your absence feel worse. My husband has been wanting to come to my sessions for a while now. Maybe i should bring him this week so i don't have to deal with all these attachment and abandonment feelings. I know it's a cop-out but i feel scared now that i said so much. . .