just remember that everything in your post has nothing to do with you, they are all just classic symptoms of depression. if you can get through your depression, just keep trying, hopefully those things will get better.

look at what you are saying. that you're family won't miss you? of course they will miss you! we will miss you! i'm sure you have friends that will miss you! from the outsider's point of view, it doesn't even make any sense to think that your family won't miss you! that's because it the depression, and only the depression, that makes you think and believe such illogical things!

the things you used to enjoy... the depression takes away your ability to enjoy them! in my case i used to thrive on how much i enjoyed the things in my life, and how much "gusto" i had to enjoy things. but that is all gone for me now. that is because of the depression! it makes it so difficult to cope. and the resulting boredom makes it that much harder to get through the day. but it is the illness! keep fighting it!

depression is like a virus that weakens us, degrades our will to live, and then takes away all of our coping mechanisims, "weakens our immunity" so to speak, so the virus becomes very hard for our bodies to fend off. but we do have immune systems even when the virus supresses them. try to have some faith in that, find strength wherever you can, and keep going.

take care of yourself.

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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