Perna, my T hadn't shown any overt irritation nor had she said anything at the time. I am extremely sensitive and can read people pretty well. It was only later when I mentioned it that she admitted she was irritated.

I don't think it's helpful to try to change our behavior necessarily in therapy when the goal is to do what it takes to get in touch with deep emotions. It's not like I did anything really extreme. I was allowing myself to be vulnerable and it makes no sense to me why she was annoyed by that. (again, she showed no overly overt demonstration of her feelings)

She made no suggestions on how I should change my behavior. I really really try to do what my T suggests. I see her as my guide and my teacher and I am very open to trying things that are very uncomfortable for me. She even comments on how hard I work and that I'm her hardest working client.

In the message I left her I did ask her to tell me what behaviors annoy her and I will definitely adjust myself. I didn't want to pop this concern of mine on her without her having time to ponder how she'll respond.

And, of course I'm paying attention. I really really want to learn from this and understand what I should be doing and how I should be behaving and how much I can trust her.