He is home now but hasn't spoken to me. Spoke on the phone several hours ago. He will probably try to straighten out his act for a few days but it won't last. I am frustrated. I am getting tough. I want to be more tough. He reminds me of my abusive brothers. Oh what a weird place. I feel like he has not a conscience. I knew him as a loving child until he was abused and traumatized. It can't be an excuse for him, it isn't for me. I am confused and I thank you for your caring support. I do appreciate it muchly.