Every night I plan to do awesome things for the next day, and some how I can just get done a few things. Like yesterday, I took the kids to the doctor to get their shots, and have a physical done for school, I took them to lunch because of the shots, then I registered the boys for pre K, I went to the post office, and then I was pooped. Now that was a super lot for me. Today, I'm backed up on laundry and dishes....must do them...but it all seems so overwhelming and tedious. I can't think how to tackle it. I also have to go to the grocery store...but dragging 4/5 kids to the store sounds like, and feels like climbing a mountain.

I also find I don't know what I'm feeling, nor do I have a vocabulary, or words to assign to them. My meds also make me confused, when I feel okay, even though things are really out of control for me. I know I just recently slipped. When like this I tend to start looking up my horoscope, getting online tarot card readings, and for the grand finally, I purchased $400.00 worth of spells to be done on two different sites to take all my issues away and bring happiness. Of course I don't see what's going on until 5 minutes after what I've done. I prayed for my soul, and then canceled everything the next morning. I really need the computer and credit cards taken away from me when I'm like this, but no one can tell if anything is wrong. I can't even...if I'm fine, fine fine, every day, and then the house and kids are out of control. Like huh?

Its interesting that you posted this thought....I was just thinking about this last nite and this morning. Since I can't sit still and I clean like a maniac; organize random stuff. Yet, I was wondering what other people with bipolar homes look like. Probably clean....but lots of stuff scattered neatly around...like things get done but not quite all the way....corners are cleaned; shelves wiped down but maybe dust on ceiling fans? Or ever floor surface vaccummed but not the furniture..you know, stuff like that-lots of magazines stacked neatly but should be thrown out (im NOT talking about hoarding) just basically being scattered in our thoughts and movements or am I the only one.....hard to contrate on putting my thoughts down on this, hopefully it make sense....